Hi first ill introduce my self iam 25 and i live in bolton england.Ive been diagnosed with Athetoid Cerebral Palsy,as well as other conditions linked to palsy.
All my life ive had friends girlfriends and had a really good social life till about 17.
Now iam 25 no friends i cant get a job ive filled in so many application forms but to no avail.
I am studing c++ and find it very hard. Iam in a class full IT professinals and young fully abled students. Its not the tutors mainly the students. They often avoid speeking to me and form there groups away from me.
I sit next to a 50 year old women who often keeps me company. I often find this in many enviroments and employers.
The only way ive ever been able to get a job is to lie and dont tell them ive a disability.
This often ends up in me getting sacked. Ive been swore at been called uslass. This is often upsetting and sometimes makes me very angry. Ive cried in public when i couldnt do something and in front of my friends,
which resulted in lossing most of them. Iam getting to the point where collage is to depressing,i only go once
week for just an hour. I find using numbers very hard i cant add up or subtract in my head. Unless i have a piece of paper the i can work out anything even hexidecimel or base 2. People have come to the door and convinced me to give them money. This has resulted in my mum only giving me the back door keys, so i cant open the front door to these people.
Now ive often thought do people treat me this way because of my disability or the way i look. Soon i found out of someone i know. They told me i was clean well dressed and i was always well presented. They also told me it wasnt my looks as i wasnt a unattractive pearson. Then my friend told me it was because i was diffrent, i was told i was wierd i did strange things like go of into moors with my dogs. I walked strange i talked strange everything i did wasnt right. I didnt want to go on to holiday to drink but to see things.To be honest i trust my friends words as hes my only friend and i very rarly see him,but he always tries to help.
Ive seen most of my friends grow and have familys and move away, i dont have the full diagnosis with me at the moument, but these dont seem to be my problems, there society's problems.
All i can say is depression is creeping in and iam almost 26 and i can see a very bleak future for me.
I dont want to live with my parents forevere and i would like to have a group of friends or even just to leave my bed room. If anyone has any advice on this coindition or any experiances please tell me.thanxs